Day 4 (Dirty)
Day 4: Can I Be Without Him?
It was one of the hardest things that I had to do, but I found myself mentally tormented over what had happened earlier today. Daddy had told me that I was welcome to stay with him, but with all that is mulling around in my head right now, and after being nearly raped for the second time I feel that I need to be alone. I don't really know why. As I look behind me for a few brief seconds I see Daddy in a position of pain. My leaving must have caused it, but he had given me no choice. He had confessed his feelings for me, and now I need to settle things from my past life as well as prove to myself I could be alone. I figured the sooner I did the better.
The mind is a strange thing, you know? One minute you can be completely content with your life, and the next, you can be forced to mull over things that don't seem to make any sense. I had no idea why I thought that I needed to settle my past life, humiliate Puixlv, and prove I could hold my own to myself, but Daddy had been my protection for a while, and I guess that I needed to be my own for once.
I walked through the night to a spot inside a fallen log where I hoped that I would be safe for the night. I wasn't quite sure why I hadn't waited until morning but I felt Daddy wouldn't want me to leave while he was asleep so the sooner I collected myself, the sooner I could make sense of it all and the sooner I could get back to him. I felt a lonely presence all through the night but the gentle sounds of the forest and the soft light of the stars eventually lulled me to sleep.
When I awoke late the next morning, I eventually went over to my family and told them that I was part of a real family now and they were not part of it. My mother stepped forward to meet me, but didn't say anything. She simply looked at me with a disgusted look. Spitting directly onto my face, she said to me,
"What the hell are you doing back here? You ran away in cowardice from Puixlv and shamed me! Ever since that day, I no longer claimed you as my daughter. Go back to this 'family' you claim to have found. You are a disgrace to me, Puixlv, our culture, and to the entire race!" She turned her back and walked away as well as everyone else who saw me. Everyone that is, except for Puixlv who followed me as I turned to leave. When I came to a clearing in the middle of the woods back near my new permanent home, Puixlv jumped out and looked at me with a menacing glare. Little did he know, I had planned for him to show up like this. I knew I couldn't overplay this or he would suspect that I was up to something, but if I underplayed it then I would be raped with no one around to help me. I sighed mentally and moved forward to face him. He said to me with a sadistic glare,
"So, finally giving in to what you know will eventually happen to you, Uiplxv?" He laughed, throwing his face into the air as he did.
I wanted to tell the cocky bastard to fuck off, but I just moved toward him slowly, cringing when I heard the disrespect that he threw at me, his head dropping and going into a subdued sadistic smile. I wanted to kill him then and there for thinking that I was simply his property running through how it could happen in my mind, but I decided to give him a mind fuck instead. This might actually be fun. I approached him and said into his ear in a low seductive tone,
"Yeah, I'm ready. Let me start it off with this. It's for being so patient."
I went to push him down onto his back with my nose, but he moved away with a look of suspicion in his eyes.
"Shit, he's not accepting it; I'll have to try a different approach" I thought and said to him,
"What, don't you want me to pleasure you before you get to come in?" This came out with a teasing tone which I wasn't sure was a good idea. As he approached me, with my hips giving a small sway back and forth he slashed my face, with his claws leaving quite a deep wound and nearly gouging out my eye. He said,
"Yeah, I want to be pleasured, but I'm the one who's going to receive it all. No pleasure for you, little bitch." When he said this he knocked me off of my feet, onto my back and sat on my chest, pinning me down. As he sat there, I could feel a liquid running onto my stomach and when I looked at him, I saw that he was marking me. I felt so degraded. I figured that he had intended to use me, but what he did next was what I had planned all along. When he had finished soaking me, the grotesque smell wafting into my nostrils, he moved up and shoved his penis into my face. It was still flaccid, so I knew what it was he wanted. When I placed it into my mouth, nearly gagging at the taste of the flesh, he started to moan softly while I cried and thought to myself "Damn. I can't believe that this was part of my plan." I kept up the act, sucking on it for a while up moving my tongue up and down his shaft, mentally gagging all the time due to the taste, until it was fully erect. When he felt that it was so, he pulled it out of my mouth and began to rub it on my exposed chest. He was laughing the whole time and I had begun to cry, the act had ended, and I decided to give it one last shot before he moved to rape me. I said to him,
"I'm sorry." I had hoped that if I could act submissive then somehow I could regain control, making it possible to extract my revenge on him. He raised his paw and slashed at my face again leaving an equally deep gash across my face in the opposite direction.
"No talking, I will do with you as I will and then you will die."
As he felt it jerk on my chest he stopped and moved down to my hips. With no regards to me or my personal well being he plunged himself into me. Immediately I felt used and let down. Just as I had thought, no pleasure came to me. He, however, smiled in a strange way while staring at my expression, right before plowing into me at a high speed. He dug into my sides, causing blood to flow from them, but this seemed to please him and he just went faster. All that I felt was pain like that of a spear piercing me. His penis was so small that it merely felt like he was poking at my insides. I felt no intimacy and no reason to continue, so I screamed,
"Get out of me now! There's no reason that you should be violating me in the first place! Daddy is the only one who's earned the right to do this to me!" He stopped and laughed saying,
"Aw, you've fallen in love with him haven't you? Well guess what, I'll let you in on a little secret." He bent down and said softly into my ear "Love is a lie. This 'Daddy' doesn't love you, he want's exactly this. Look at him, you know it's true. Males don't love; we only take what is rightfully ours. So who's your daddy now, bitch? Who?" After saying this, he shoved himself into me and ejaculated. I knew that I would kill him for saying that. So, after he pulled out, just as I thought, he shoved his penis into my face again and said,
"Do you're job, bitch." I did, and I knew how I was going to end this torture. As I cleaned it, I went to degrade myself even more by taking the entire thing into my mouth. Through his moans, he yelled to me,
"That's good, more, more." It jerked yet again in my mouth. I knew it was time now.
"Time for payback for this and all you've abused, you little fucking bastard" I thought and...
I bit down, hard, piercing his flesh and taking his penis off completely from the bottom. He howled in pain and dropped down onto me. As he looked back up, bleeding profusely from his pelvic region, I spat his useless tool back at his face and said to him,
'Torment me now, asshole! You knew full well that I could defend myself and I did" I shouldn't have said that because when I did, he bit at my neck, drawing blood and causing me to yelp out in pain. I shoved him off throwing him a short distance away. As he landed on his back, I jumped onto him, pinning him down and placing my paw on his throat, choking him. I poised my claws at his neck ready to attack, but before I did he managed to choke out a yelp for me to stop. I released his throat a little and said to him,
"What do you want? You can't win because you're a small, weak, little punk. Just accept it. You are going to die here by my paw." I held my claws at his throat and grinned a little as he pleaded to me,
"N-No. Don't kill me. You've already taken my power away from me. I'm useless now. Just me go back to the family and have them deal judgment on me for what I did. Besides I need to fight the next male-born child for power."
"Why? You treat me like shit, try to take daddy's place; while raping me nonetheless, lie to me about love and when you know you are about to die you beg for mercy? You make me sick!" I yelled and spat on him. "You want judgment? All right, I hereby find you guilty of rape, torture, and crimes against all Vulpix kind. You are useless to us and the world so I shouldn't need to let you live. When the new male comes of age he'll take over your position."
"Then let me be a vagabond, roaming the forest until I die as a statement of my weakness."
That was a tempting idea. Let him roam for fifteen years broken and shunned by the rest of the world. But, it seemed like it might have been too good of an idea because I knew if I let him go, then there was a chance, however slim, that he would come back to me and attack again. I didn't like that idea, so I smiled, leaned my head down and whispered into his ear,
"No." I raised my paw above my head and brought it down, piercing his throat and covering myself in blood smiling sadistically all the time. I was thoroughly enjoying the fact that I held the power and the sight of his blood calmed me. Daddy would be so proud if he could see me now. I had conquered my old fear and as a celebration I took his struggling, suffocating body, drank the blood of my victory, ate his flesh; slowly, making him feel everything I was doing to him and danced around his remains as a symbol of my victory. I had conquered him. Puixlv was dead, I had survived; with minor injuries, and I could go home to Daddy. But, my fur was matted, my teeth were red with blood, and I looked like a murderer. Besides that, I had been raped. What would he say? Would he take me back? Would he even care? I wondered, so in an attempt to make a peace offering to him, I grabbed Puixlv's head, his eyes still frozen with the shock and pain that I had dealt to him, and carried it back toward the cabin with me hoping Daddy would take it as an expression that my old life of fear was gone and done with and I was completely his, and the one who tortured me was dead.
As I was approaching his cabin, I realized that before I see my provider again, I should probably make a visible effort to clean myself of the blood, and urine I was covered in. So I headed over to a small river where I tried to clean myself off. Though the blood, matting, and smell came off, mostly, I lacked the feeling of cleanliness that Daddy supplied when he bathed me. I had to admit, although I was only gone about a half a day, his treatment of me was what I missed most.
Ah, the treatment! How I loved the way that I felt when I was with him. I knew that he treated me like he did out of love and it's a nice change to how I'm treated by my culture. But, before I got there, what did he have to give all this love to? He told me he had lived alone since collage, but that long away from any contact from anything at all? I don't see how he could have managed it. Nevertheless, I knew he would be missing me and wanting me to come back to him. I too want to go home but not enough time had passed. So alone I sat, reminiscing.
"So, this is how he felt all those years alone in that little cabin. But, if he can be alone for so long I think I can deal being without him for about a day or so." I sat alone for a little while in the cold water hoping to think of something I could do alone to make myself feel loved, but it was an utter failure.
"Fuck this, I'm going home." I said, picked up Puixlv's head, and walked back toward my new home.
As I was walking back, it started to rain and I felt depressed. My life was shit, and the only thing that kept me from killing myself was the fact that I was accepted by Daddy. I looked up, the rain had soaked me even more then when I washed myself but soaking was all that rain was good for. It did nothing to help my sprits. The driving rain was cold, and I felt chills running through my body. Then as the rain started to pound down hard onto me, damping my spirits, I saw it. Daddy's cabin, warm and inviting. My spirit was raised and I smiled inwardly. Refuge. I ran toward it hoping with all my heart that Daddy would take me back.
Right before I arrived, Daddy must have seen me because he opened the door and looking at me with open arms he said to me through the poring rain,
"Welcome home." I dropped Puixlv's head and ran over to him. He didn't even look at it, but instead picked me up and embraced my body like he never had before. He didn't need any kind of offering, he needed me. I felt for the first time like I was genuinely needed, so I let him hug me. I nuzzled his body, tears running down my cheeks. His embrace was warm, and though I was dirty and soaked, he didn't seem to care. He just liked the fact that I had come back to him. He carried me into the bathroom, not breaking his loving embrace and he cleaned me. I felt no need to protect myself from him anymore for I knew that he would do nothing to hurt me. After all, why would he? This type of cleaning, sitting with him with full submission made me feel when he had finished like I was truly clean. He put me into bed with him and I broke my silence by saying simply to him,
"Thank you, Daddy." As far as I was concerned I was completely his. He gave me everything; hope, need, desire and security. I never wanted to be away from him again. I knew that all I could give him now was my love, but he deserved to know what happened a few hours ago so as plainly as I could I told him,
"Daddy, I have something to tell you that you need to know. While I was gone and away from you, I ran into Puixlv. That's his head outside. And, well... he raped me. I had wanted to conquer my fear of him, but my plan went awry and he took all that I could give to you away in one simple moment of torture's pain. He may be dead and gone now but I feel like I let you down." His face didn't change. Ether he was exceedingly tired, or with my luck he was pissed and he was going to throw me out. I prepared for the worst when he said,
"I'm sorry, Xpivul. I should have been there to protect you, but what happened, happened. So you're not a virgin anymore. That really doesn't matter to me. It might have been painful, but that just means that when we do it, I'll have to do my best to give you nothing but pleasure."
I should have expected that from my daddy. He was so accepting. Ever since he found me outside unconscious in the first place, he'd been this way. I smiled, but something had been weighing on my mind. Could it be possible that Daddy was too accepting of me? I mean it seemed that anything that I did would be overlooked by him and he just wanted me around. He was willing to accept anything in order for me to stay with him. I had no idea why I felt this way, but being around him was comforting. Something must have been going on outwardly because Daddy seemed to become concerned, maybe it was the fact that I had grown silent.
I figured that now was as good a time as any to bring up this question, so a bit reluctantly I asked,
"Daddy, why is it that you're so accepting of me? I mean it seems like anything I do you would ignore and accept. Like, for example, my rape. Not just anyone would just shrug that off. How do I know that you really aren't only in this relationship with me for my body?"
Daddy looked hurt by that and responded in a tone that seemed to teeter on the verge of tears.
"How can you think that? If I was only in a relationship with you for your body, don't you think I've had ample time to take it and throw you out by now? Come on Xpivul. I-I love you. Not just for your body, but for the inner feelings that I thought we shared with each other. What in the world made you think that?"
"I don't know, Daddy. I think it might be due to the fact that I've never been accepted before and maybe you're heaping it on a little bit too thick."
He smiled and laughed a little. I guess that the only thing left for us was to be joined as one so with no reluctance I said to him,
"Daddy, I'm sorry for doubting you." Then leaning close to his ear I whispered to him "I'm yours." That's it. No fancy words, no seduction, I gave to him everything that I had left within me. To my surprise he said back to me,
"Xpivul, I don't think we need to go there right now, especially after what just happened to you. Sex didn't bring us together, but if you want I can open your mind and make you feel pleasured, but only if you do me a favor first."
I was stunned. Wasn't that the reason he had taken me into his life in the first place? What did he mean by pleasured? After what I'd just experienced, I was sure that females don't receive pleasure, they give it and what kind of favor could he want. He picked me up and brought me over to the unlighted fireplace with fresh wood placed in it. He looked at me with a glint in his eye and I knew what it was that he wanted. I lay down before it and daddy came up behind me and began to message me like he always had. This time was a little bit different because it felt a lot better and I felt the heat building up in my body. With a simple message of my throat daddy coaxed me into releasing a small stream of fire into the fireplace making it give off a soft glow. That simple little glow added to the serine beauty of the cabin in the woods. Light dancing in the reflection of our eyes and what I found to be love burning in them. While we were staring into each others eyes he closed his and slowly brought his face to mine. He parted my lips with his tongue and moved it inside my mouth tasting the inside of it and by instinct I did the same. With my eyes closed I let him take complete control of this situation, after all he was the one who seemed to know what he was doing. Before I knew it Daddy was taking a finger and sliding it between my tails, very slowly and gently. He was right, the skin was sensitive and it sent some pleasure through my body. He worked up and down on each of my four tails, giving me feelings I never had before. For the first time I felt the need for something other then food and acceptance for the way I was. He continued with them and I lay there undefended, feeling only the pleasure that he was giving to me. Eventually, after regrettably taking his lips from mine, he left that region and flipped me on my side exposing my nipples. He licked them softly and a surge of pleasure ran through my body. I had started to moan softly by now while slowly kicking my legs unconsciously and he smiled saying,
"See? You can receive pleasure." Did I really need to say anything? I just looked at him and nodded, continuing to moan softly. As he continued all I could feel was pleasure, it just kept coming. I told Daddy this and he said,
"Just let it all go. There's no need to hold anything back anymore." And reached around me to my rear where he pressed down ever so gently on a flap of flesh just above my vagina. That drove me over the edge. I let everything go and when I did, I immediately felt a rage of ecstasy rushing through my body and Daddy was there above me smiling, leading me through it. I just let go of everything, all my stress, my pain and my tension from what had happened to me throughout my life. I could feel every muscle in my body tensing up and relaxing all at the same time. I moaned in ultimate bliss releasing everything and covering the floor with a strange liquid. Daddy seemed happy with this result because he picked me up and placed me on his chest like he normally did except I couldn't bring myself to lay flat. I just flopped down onto his chest, my legs falling to his side. Daddy brought my face close to his and put his lips to my mouth. I was too weak to resist; not that I wanted to, so I melted into it. His lips tasted like wine and his tongue was working wonders. My eyes rolled up and closed as I let him take control. He continued to stroke my back slowly with his hand all the time sending pleasure into my body. This feeling of being loved by Daddy was excellent and I loved it. Daddy broke the kiss and he laid me on the bed next to him, his face close to mine, just like we always had, and said,
"See?"
I smiled. But something didn't seem right. He had just pleasured me, so it made sense that I needed to return the favor. I'll admit that I was tired, but I didn't want Daddy to think I was ungrateful so I asked him,
"Daddy that was great. Should I return the favor?" That seemed to come as a complete shock to him. Apparently he wasn't expecting anything to happen after we had finished but he said,
"Sure, if you don't feel degraded doing so." Daddy said, making me think about it for a little while, but I realized that if he was willing to give me pleasure, then he deserved the same. So I moved down just like I had with the head male, but with no intention of dismembering him. When I got down to a level area with it I really looked at it for the first time. It was huge! I mean I had expected that all phalluses would be the same but Daddy's had to be at least twice the size of Pulxiv's. I kind of smiled because it was already erect, and I didn't have to do anything to bring it to that state. As I looked, I decided to try something. Slowly and carefully I took one of my paws and moved it down his shaft electing moans from Daddy.
"All right" I thought, "That worked, but how about this?" Then I took the other paw and started rubbing it on the other side. Daddy's moans grew louder. It didn't seem painful to him so I decided to experiment a little. I took one paw off, still rubbing with the other and I slowly brought my mouth to it and gave it soft experimental licks. Daddy nearly lost control, screaming my name and arching his hips and I knew he wanted the real thing. I wanted to please him more, but tease him at the same time so I took my paw away and stopped the little licks and Daddy whimpered, saying in a tone that expressed more then disappointment,
"No, don't stop. It feels so good." So grinning at him and moving ever so slowly I went up to him walking along his stomach and kissed him moving my tongue around inside his mouth as he had done for me. Then breaking it I turned and moved back down, smiling all the way. I saw it again pulsing and I knew he was anxious to have my mouth on it again. So, I then took it into my mouth, slightly, placing only the head inside. I then took my two front paws and began to slowly massage it again making Daddy moan like I had. I hadn't expected him to participate in this little event or at least not after so long, but he began to massage my hind quarters with both his hands before bringing his lips to my vagina and giving it a small kiss and a long lick up through the top of my tails moving his mouth down to suck on the middle one teasing me as I had done to him. I almost lost control but I held onto my composure and continued my treatment of Daddy...or I tried to up until he began to give short licks to my vagina again and I began to wonder who was pleasuring who in this little event? I tried to concentrate but I couldn't keep a steady pace due to all the pleasure that I was receiving from Daddy. He had penetrated my lips by now and was working magic with that tongue of his while I continued with my work, massaging him slowly and sucking, milking his phallus, trying to make him ejaculate, hoping that what I was doing was right.
Then all of a sudden, he stopped. I took my mouth off of his phallus and looked at him with a look that said "Is something wrong?" He merely smiled and turned me to face him. He then said,
"Are you sure you want to be penetrated by me?"
"Only if you can make it pleasurable for me, Daddy." I said, my voice wavering and I must have sounded unsure of myself, but Daddy in his ultimate understanding of me continued his soothing smile and slowly brought my vagina up to his phallus and said softly,
"Tell me to stop if I hurt you."
Then, continuing to go slow, he pushed and penetrated me, pushing all of it into me, and I loved it. When he was all the way in he held it for a few seconds and began to pull it out stopping again and repeating, so slow the pleasure was almost agonizing. But, getting into it, I rocked my hips with his motions completely letting instinct take over. All the while Daddy messaged my back making me relax and feel more natural. My moaning had changed into screams of ecstasy calling Daddy's name telling him that I loved him and I resisted the urge to shoot a torrent of flames out of my mouth for I knew it would be disastrous. Daddy had given up being silent through this and began to call my name telling me that he loved me. My vagina seemed to swallow every inch of Daddy and it gave me feelings that are impossible to describe, but amazingly Daddy didn't speed up. He kept an agonizingly slow pace which only caused to increase our pleasure. Our ecstasy reached its peek after a short while but before it did, something strange happened to him. For some reason unknown to me Daddy began to glow. Yes, glow. I wouldn't even have noticed if he hadn't stopped his loving thrusts into me. I looked down, and he began to shrink, not inside me, but his body became more canine, and when the glow died, Daddy was a Vulpix! He looked at me with surprise for we were now face to face with me on top. He smiled and licked my face before saying,
"Heh, now that's an interesting switch."
We spent a few minutes looking into each other's eyes knowing now that the love we shared wasn't an abomination. After a while Daddy shut his eyes and moved his face toward me again and I did the same, slowly dropping my body onto his. We shared a very passionate kiss and while we did Daddy again began to thrust into me with the same speed and I broke the kiss for a yell of ecstasy. We continued to enjoy the feeling of each other until regrettably, but magically our feelings rose to their peek and we joined with each other causing both of us to scream and a rush of feelings to coerce through us. I knew that the head male had lied, of course there's such a thing as love, and this was it. I collapsed on him panting because the union that we shared, though beautiful, was extremely tiring for both of us.
Rolling off of Daddy I licked his face and said,
"Thank you"
He smiled and moved toward me, licking my face in response. I looked at him again and saw the light from the fire which had died down to a low glow giving off an ambient light that only served to heighten the feelings that we had for each other. I smiled. We got up and moved back over to the head of the bed where the pillows were which we climbed up on and snuggled together. I knew that I had made his first time blissful, and the first real time for me was as well. I knew that we had love for each other and I'm glad for it. Now we are one and no one can take him away from me.
It was one of the hardest things that I had to do, but I found myself mentally tormented over what had happened earlier today. Daddy had told me that I was welcome to stay with him, but with all that is mulling around in my head right now, and after being nearly raped for the second time I feel that I need to be alone. I don't really know why. As I look behind me for a few brief seconds I see Daddy in a position of pain. My leaving must have caused it, but he had given me no choice. He had confessed his feelings for me, and now I need to settle things from my past life as well as prove to myself I could be alone. I figured the sooner I did the better.
The mind is a strange thing, you know? One minute you can be completely content with your life, and the next, you can be forced to mull over things that don't seem to make any sense. I had no idea why I thought that I needed to settle my past life, humiliate Puixlv, and prove I could hold my own to myself, but Daddy had been my protection for a while, and I guess that I needed to be my own for once.
I walked through the night to a spot inside a fallen log where I hoped that I would be safe for the night. I wasn't quite sure why I hadn't waited until morning but I felt Daddy wouldn't want me to leave while he was asleep so the sooner I collected myself, the sooner I could make sense of it all and the sooner I could get back to him. I felt a lonely presence all through the night but the gentle sounds of the forest and the soft light of the stars eventually lulled me to sleep.
When I awoke late the next morning, I eventually went over to my family and told them that I was part of a real family now and they were not part of it. My mother stepped forward to meet me, but didn't say anything. She simply looked at me with a disgusted look. Spitting directly onto my face, she said to me,
"What the hell are you doing back here? You ran away in cowardice from Puixlv and shamed me! Ever since that day, I no longer claimed you as my daughter. Go back to this 'family' you claim to have found. You are a disgrace to me, Puixlv, our culture, and to the entire race!" She turned her back and walked away as well as everyone else who saw me. Everyone that is, except for Puixlv who followed me as I turned to leave. When I came to a clearing in the middle of the woods back near my new permanent home, Puixlv jumped out and looked at me with a menacing glare. Little did he know, I had planned for him to show up like this. I knew I couldn't overplay this or he would suspect that I was up to something, but if I underplayed it then I would be raped with no one around to help me. I sighed mentally and moved forward to face him. He said to me with a sadistic glare,
"So, finally giving in to what you know will eventually happen to you, Uiplxv?" He laughed, throwing his face into the air as he did.
I wanted to tell the cocky bastard to fuck off, but I just moved toward him slowly, cringing when I heard the disrespect that he threw at me, his head dropping and going into a subdued sadistic smile. I wanted to kill him then and there for thinking that I was simply his property running through how it could happen in my mind, but I decided to give him a mind fuck instead. This might actually be fun. I approached him and said into his ear in a low seductive tone,
"Yeah, I'm ready. Let me start it off with this. It's for being so patient."
I went to push him down onto his back with my nose, but he moved away with a look of suspicion in his eyes.
"Shit, he's not accepting it; I'll have to try a different approach" I thought and said to him,
"What, don't you want me to pleasure you before you get to come in?" This came out with a teasing tone which I wasn't sure was a good idea. As he approached me, with my hips giving a small sway back and forth he slashed my face, with his claws leaving quite a deep wound and nearly gouging out my eye. He said,
"Yeah, I want to be pleasured, but I'm the one who's going to receive it all. No pleasure for you, little bitch." When he said this he knocked me off of my feet, onto my back and sat on my chest, pinning me down. As he sat there, I could feel a liquid running onto my stomach and when I looked at him, I saw that he was marking me. I felt so degraded. I figured that he had intended to use me, but what he did next was what I had planned all along. When he had finished soaking me, the grotesque smell wafting into my nostrils, he moved up and shoved his penis into my face. It was still flaccid, so I knew what it was he wanted. When I placed it into my mouth, nearly gagging at the taste of the flesh, he started to moan softly while I cried and thought to myself "Damn. I can't believe that this was part of my plan." I kept up the act, sucking on it for a while up moving my tongue up and down his shaft, mentally gagging all the time due to the taste, until it was fully erect. When he felt that it was so, he pulled it out of my mouth and began to rub it on my exposed chest. He was laughing the whole time and I had begun to cry, the act had ended, and I decided to give it one last shot before he moved to rape me. I said to him,
"I'm sorry." I had hoped that if I could act submissive then somehow I could regain control, making it possible to extract my revenge on him. He raised his paw and slashed at my face again leaving an equally deep gash across my face in the opposite direction.
"No talking, I will do with you as I will and then you will die."
As he felt it jerk on my chest he stopped and moved down to my hips. With no regards to me or my personal well being he plunged himself into me. Immediately I felt used and let down. Just as I had thought, no pleasure came to me. He, however, smiled in a strange way while staring at my expression, right before plowing into me at a high speed. He dug into my sides, causing blood to flow from them, but this seemed to please him and he just went faster. All that I felt was pain like that of a spear piercing me. His penis was so small that it merely felt like he was poking at my insides. I felt no intimacy and no reason to continue, so I screamed,
"Get out of me now! There's no reason that you should be violating me in the first place! Daddy is the only one who's earned the right to do this to me!" He stopped and laughed saying,
"Aw, you've fallen in love with him haven't you? Well guess what, I'll let you in on a little secret." He bent down and said softly into my ear "Love is a lie. This 'Daddy' doesn't love you, he want's exactly this. Look at him, you know it's true. Males don't love; we only take what is rightfully ours. So who's your daddy now, bitch? Who?" After saying this, he shoved himself into me and ejaculated. I knew that I would kill him for saying that. So, after he pulled out, just as I thought, he shoved his penis into my face again and said,
"Do you're job, bitch." I did, and I knew how I was going to end this torture. As I cleaned it, I went to degrade myself even more by taking the entire thing into my mouth. Through his moans, he yelled to me,
"That's good, more, more." It jerked yet again in my mouth. I knew it was time now.
"Time for payback for this and all you've abused, you little fucking bastard" I thought and...
I bit down, hard, piercing his flesh and taking his penis off completely from the bottom. He howled in pain and dropped down onto me. As he looked back up, bleeding profusely from his pelvic region, I spat his useless tool back at his face and said to him,
'Torment me now, asshole! You knew full well that I could defend myself and I did" I shouldn't have said that because when I did, he bit at my neck, drawing blood and causing me to yelp out in pain. I shoved him off throwing him a short distance away. As he landed on his back, I jumped onto him, pinning him down and placing my paw on his throat, choking him. I poised my claws at his neck ready to attack, but before I did he managed to choke out a yelp for me to stop. I released his throat a little and said to him,
"What do you want? You can't win because you're a small, weak, little punk. Just accept it. You are going to die here by my paw." I held my claws at his throat and grinned a little as he pleaded to me,
"N-No. Don't kill me. You've already taken my power away from me. I'm useless now. Just me go back to the family and have them deal judgment on me for what I did. Besides I need to fight the next male-born child for power."
"Why? You treat me like shit, try to take daddy's place; while raping me nonetheless, lie to me about love and when you know you are about to die you beg for mercy? You make me sick!" I yelled and spat on him. "You want judgment? All right, I hereby find you guilty of rape, torture, and crimes against all Vulpix kind. You are useless to us and the world so I shouldn't need to let you live. When the new male comes of age he'll take over your position."
"Then let me be a vagabond, roaming the forest until I die as a statement of my weakness."
That was a tempting idea. Let him roam for fifteen years broken and shunned by the rest of the world. But, it seemed like it might have been too good of an idea because I knew if I let him go, then there was a chance, however slim, that he would come back to me and attack again. I didn't like that idea, so I smiled, leaned my head down and whispered into his ear,
"No." I raised my paw above my head and brought it down, piercing his throat and covering myself in blood smiling sadistically all the time. I was thoroughly enjoying the fact that I held the power and the sight of his blood calmed me. Daddy would be so proud if he could see me now. I had conquered my old fear and as a celebration I took his struggling, suffocating body, drank the blood of my victory, ate his flesh; slowly, making him feel everything I was doing to him and danced around his remains as a symbol of my victory. I had conquered him. Puixlv was dead, I had survived; with minor injuries, and I could go home to Daddy. But, my fur was matted, my teeth were red with blood, and I looked like a murderer. Besides that, I had been raped. What would he say? Would he take me back? Would he even care? I wondered, so in an attempt to make a peace offering to him, I grabbed Puixlv's head, his eyes still frozen with the shock and pain that I had dealt to him, and carried it back toward the cabin with me hoping Daddy would take it as an expression that my old life of fear was gone and done with and I was completely his, and the one who tortured me was dead.
As I was approaching his cabin, I realized that before I see my provider again, I should probably make a visible effort to clean myself of the blood, and urine I was covered in. So I headed over to a small river where I tried to clean myself off. Though the blood, matting, and smell came off, mostly, I lacked the feeling of cleanliness that Daddy supplied when he bathed me. I had to admit, although I was only gone about a half a day, his treatment of me was what I missed most.
Ah, the treatment! How I loved the way that I felt when I was with him. I knew that he treated me like he did out of love and it's a nice change to how I'm treated by my culture. But, before I got there, what did he have to give all this love to? He told me he had lived alone since collage, but that long away from any contact from anything at all? I don't see how he could have managed it. Nevertheless, I knew he would be missing me and wanting me to come back to him. I too want to go home but not enough time had passed. So alone I sat, reminiscing.
"So, this is how he felt all those years alone in that little cabin. But, if he can be alone for so long I think I can deal being without him for about a day or so." I sat alone for a little while in the cold water hoping to think of something I could do alone to make myself feel loved, but it was an utter failure.
"Fuck this, I'm going home." I said, picked up Puixlv's head, and walked back toward my new home.
As I was walking back, it started to rain and I felt depressed. My life was shit, and the only thing that kept me from killing myself was the fact that I was accepted by Daddy. I looked up, the rain had soaked me even more then when I washed myself but soaking was all that rain was good for. It did nothing to help my sprits. The driving rain was cold, and I felt chills running through my body. Then as the rain started to pound down hard onto me, damping my spirits, I saw it. Daddy's cabin, warm and inviting. My spirit was raised and I smiled inwardly. Refuge. I ran toward it hoping with all my heart that Daddy would take me back.
Right before I arrived, Daddy must have seen me because he opened the door and looking at me with open arms he said to me through the poring rain,
"Welcome home." I dropped Puixlv's head and ran over to him. He didn't even look at it, but instead picked me up and embraced my body like he never had before. He didn't need any kind of offering, he needed me. I felt for the first time like I was genuinely needed, so I let him hug me. I nuzzled his body, tears running down my cheeks. His embrace was warm, and though I was dirty and soaked, he didn't seem to care. He just liked the fact that I had come back to him. He carried me into the bathroom, not breaking his loving embrace and he cleaned me. I felt no need to protect myself from him anymore for I knew that he would do nothing to hurt me. After all, why would he? This type of cleaning, sitting with him with full submission made me feel when he had finished like I was truly clean. He put me into bed with him and I broke my silence by saying simply to him,
"Thank you, Daddy." As far as I was concerned I was completely his. He gave me everything; hope, need, desire and security. I never wanted to be away from him again. I knew that all I could give him now was my love, but he deserved to know what happened a few hours ago so as plainly as I could I told him,
"Daddy, I have something to tell you that you need to know. While I was gone and away from you, I ran into Puixlv. That's his head outside. And, well... he raped me. I had wanted to conquer my fear of him, but my plan went awry and he took all that I could give to you away in one simple moment of torture's pain. He may be dead and gone now but I feel like I let you down." His face didn't change. Ether he was exceedingly tired, or with my luck he was pissed and he was going to throw me out. I prepared for the worst when he said,
"I'm sorry, Xpivul. I should have been there to protect you, but what happened, happened. So you're not a virgin anymore. That really doesn't matter to me. It might have been painful, but that just means that when we do it, I'll have to do my best to give you nothing but pleasure."
I should have expected that from my daddy. He was so accepting. Ever since he found me outside unconscious in the first place, he'd been this way. I smiled, but something had been weighing on my mind. Could it be possible that Daddy was too accepting of me? I mean it seemed that anything that I did would be overlooked by him and he just wanted me around. He was willing to accept anything in order for me to stay with him. I had no idea why I felt this way, but being around him was comforting. Something must have been going on outwardly because Daddy seemed to become concerned, maybe it was the fact that I had grown silent.
I figured that now was as good a time as any to bring up this question, so a bit reluctantly I asked,
"Daddy, why is it that you're so accepting of me? I mean it seems like anything I do you would ignore and accept. Like, for example, my rape. Not just anyone would just shrug that off. How do I know that you really aren't only in this relationship with me for my body?"
Daddy looked hurt by that and responded in a tone that seemed to teeter on the verge of tears.
"How can you think that? If I was only in a relationship with you for your body, don't you think I've had ample time to take it and throw you out by now? Come on Xpivul. I-I love you. Not just for your body, but for the inner feelings that I thought we shared with each other. What in the world made you think that?"
"I don't know, Daddy. I think it might be due to the fact that I've never been accepted before and maybe you're heaping it on a little bit too thick."
He smiled and laughed a little. I guess that the only thing left for us was to be joined as one so with no reluctance I said to him,
"Daddy, I'm sorry for doubting you." Then leaning close to his ear I whispered to him "I'm yours." That's it. No fancy words, no seduction, I gave to him everything that I had left within me. To my surprise he said back to me,
"Xpivul, I don't think we need to go there right now, especially after what just happened to you. Sex didn't bring us together, but if you want I can open your mind and make you feel pleasured, but only if you do me a favor first."
I was stunned. Wasn't that the reason he had taken me into his life in the first place? What did he mean by pleasured? After what I'd just experienced, I was sure that females don't receive pleasure, they give it and what kind of favor could he want. He picked me up and brought me over to the unlighted fireplace with fresh wood placed in it. He looked at me with a glint in his eye and I knew what it was that he wanted. I lay down before it and daddy came up behind me and began to message me like he always had. This time was a little bit different because it felt a lot better and I felt the heat building up in my body. With a simple message of my throat daddy coaxed me into releasing a small stream of fire into the fireplace making it give off a soft glow. That simple little glow added to the serine beauty of the cabin in the woods. Light dancing in the reflection of our eyes and what I found to be love burning in them. While we were staring into each others eyes he closed his and slowly brought his face to mine. He parted my lips with his tongue and moved it inside my mouth tasting the inside of it and by instinct I did the same. With my eyes closed I let him take complete control of this situation, after all he was the one who seemed to know what he was doing. Before I knew it Daddy was taking a finger and sliding it between my tails, very slowly and gently. He was right, the skin was sensitive and it sent some pleasure through my body. He worked up and down on each of my four tails, giving me feelings I never had before. For the first time I felt the need for something other then food and acceptance for the way I was. He continued with them and I lay there undefended, feeling only the pleasure that he was giving to me. Eventually, after regrettably taking his lips from mine, he left that region and flipped me on my side exposing my nipples. He licked them softly and a surge of pleasure ran through my body. I had started to moan softly by now while slowly kicking my legs unconsciously and he smiled saying,
"See? You can receive pleasure." Did I really need to say anything? I just looked at him and nodded, continuing to moan softly. As he continued all I could feel was pleasure, it just kept coming. I told Daddy this and he said,
"Just let it all go. There's no need to hold anything back anymore." And reached around me to my rear where he pressed down ever so gently on a flap of flesh just above my vagina. That drove me over the edge. I let everything go and when I did, I immediately felt a rage of ecstasy rushing through my body and Daddy was there above me smiling, leading me through it. I just let go of everything, all my stress, my pain and my tension from what had happened to me throughout my life. I could feel every muscle in my body tensing up and relaxing all at the same time. I moaned in ultimate bliss releasing everything and covering the floor with a strange liquid. Daddy seemed happy with this result because he picked me up and placed me on his chest like he normally did except I couldn't bring myself to lay flat. I just flopped down onto his chest, my legs falling to his side. Daddy brought my face close to his and put his lips to my mouth. I was too weak to resist; not that I wanted to, so I melted into it. His lips tasted like wine and his tongue was working wonders. My eyes rolled up and closed as I let him take control. He continued to stroke my back slowly with his hand all the time sending pleasure into my body. This feeling of being loved by Daddy was excellent and I loved it. Daddy broke the kiss and he laid me on the bed next to him, his face close to mine, just like we always had, and said,
"See?"
I smiled. But something didn't seem right. He had just pleasured me, so it made sense that I needed to return the favor. I'll admit that I was tired, but I didn't want Daddy to think I was ungrateful so I asked him,
"Daddy that was great. Should I return the favor?" That seemed to come as a complete shock to him. Apparently he wasn't expecting anything to happen after we had finished but he said,
"Sure, if you don't feel degraded doing so." Daddy said, making me think about it for a little while, but I realized that if he was willing to give me pleasure, then he deserved the same. So I moved down just like I had with the head male, but with no intention of dismembering him. When I got down to a level area with it I really looked at it for the first time. It was huge! I mean I had expected that all phalluses would be the same but Daddy's had to be at least twice the size of Pulxiv's. I kind of smiled because it was already erect, and I didn't have to do anything to bring it to that state. As I looked, I decided to try something. Slowly and carefully I took one of my paws and moved it down his shaft electing moans from Daddy.
"All right" I thought, "That worked, but how about this?" Then I took the other paw and started rubbing it on the other side. Daddy's moans grew louder. It didn't seem painful to him so I decided to experiment a little. I took one paw off, still rubbing with the other and I slowly brought my mouth to it and gave it soft experimental licks. Daddy nearly lost control, screaming my name and arching his hips and I knew he wanted the real thing. I wanted to please him more, but tease him at the same time so I took my paw away and stopped the little licks and Daddy whimpered, saying in a tone that expressed more then disappointment,
"No, don't stop. It feels so good." So grinning at him and moving ever so slowly I went up to him walking along his stomach and kissed him moving my tongue around inside his mouth as he had done for me. Then breaking it I turned and moved back down, smiling all the way. I saw it again pulsing and I knew he was anxious to have my mouth on it again. So, I then took it into my mouth, slightly, placing only the head inside. I then took my two front paws and began to slowly massage it again making Daddy moan like I had. I hadn't expected him to participate in this little event or at least not after so long, but he began to massage my hind quarters with both his hands before bringing his lips to my vagina and giving it a small kiss and a long lick up through the top of my tails moving his mouth down to suck on the middle one teasing me as I had done to him. I almost lost control but I held onto my composure and continued my treatment of Daddy...or I tried to up until he began to give short licks to my vagina again and I began to wonder who was pleasuring who in this little event? I tried to concentrate but I couldn't keep a steady pace due to all the pleasure that I was receiving from Daddy. He had penetrated my lips by now and was working magic with that tongue of his while I continued with my work, massaging him slowly and sucking, milking his phallus, trying to make him ejaculate, hoping that what I was doing was right.
Then all of a sudden, he stopped. I took my mouth off of his phallus and looked at him with a look that said "Is something wrong?" He merely smiled and turned me to face him. He then said,
"Are you sure you want to be penetrated by me?"
"Only if you can make it pleasurable for me, Daddy." I said, my voice wavering and I must have sounded unsure of myself, but Daddy in his ultimate understanding of me continued his soothing smile and slowly brought my vagina up to his phallus and said softly,
"Tell me to stop if I hurt you."
Then, continuing to go slow, he pushed and penetrated me, pushing all of it into me, and I loved it. When he was all the way in he held it for a few seconds and began to pull it out stopping again and repeating, so slow the pleasure was almost agonizing. But, getting into it, I rocked my hips with his motions completely letting instinct take over. All the while Daddy messaged my back making me relax and feel more natural. My moaning had changed into screams of ecstasy calling Daddy's name telling him that I loved him and I resisted the urge to shoot a torrent of flames out of my mouth for I knew it would be disastrous. Daddy had given up being silent through this and began to call my name telling me that he loved me. My vagina seemed to swallow every inch of Daddy and it gave me feelings that are impossible to describe, but amazingly Daddy didn't speed up. He kept an agonizingly slow pace which only caused to increase our pleasure. Our ecstasy reached its peek after a short while but before it did, something strange happened to him. For some reason unknown to me Daddy began to glow. Yes, glow. I wouldn't even have noticed if he hadn't stopped his loving thrusts into me. I looked down, and he began to shrink, not inside me, but his body became more canine, and when the glow died, Daddy was a Vulpix! He looked at me with surprise for we were now face to face with me on top. He smiled and licked my face before saying,
"Heh, now that's an interesting switch."
We spent a few minutes looking into each other's eyes knowing now that the love we shared wasn't an abomination. After a while Daddy shut his eyes and moved his face toward me again and I did the same, slowly dropping my body onto his. We shared a very passionate kiss and while we did Daddy again began to thrust into me with the same speed and I broke the kiss for a yell of ecstasy. We continued to enjoy the feeling of each other until regrettably, but magically our feelings rose to their peek and we joined with each other causing both of us to scream and a rush of feelings to coerce through us. I knew that the head male had lied, of course there's such a thing as love, and this was it. I collapsed on him panting because the union that we shared, though beautiful, was extremely tiring for both of us.
Rolling off of Daddy I licked his face and said,
"Thank you"
He smiled and moved toward me, licking my face in response. I looked at him again and saw the light from the fire which had died down to a low glow giving off an ambient light that only served to heighten the feelings that we had for each other. I smiled. We got up and moved back over to the head of the bed where the pillows were which we climbed up on and snuggled together. I knew that I had made his first time blissful, and the first real time for me was as well. I knew that we had love for each other and I'm glad for it. Now we are one and no one can take him away from me.