February 8, 2008: Wow, I never expected that my grandmother would get me a journal for my birthday. I mean, com'on, I'm 18 years old now; I am not a little kid anymore. Heck, I don't even think 12 year old boys like journals. But, it was a gift, so I am going to try and write in this every night, just to keep her happy. So, that's about it, uhh, goodbye? (I don't exactly know how to end this, so I guess this is me signing off. "And that's the way the cookie crumbles." Hehe.)

May 23, 2008: Well, man has it been a long time. Things have been hard since I last left off. I mean, my family has gotten so tough on me lately, and for what? Just because they don't like the people I hang out with. There is nothing wrong with them. She doesn't know them like I do. Sure, some of them have a troubled past, but that isn't their fault. I just wish they could let up a little. But, something good happened today; I met a funny little Mudkip who was introduced to me by my best friend. He seems really cool, and I only have met him for 3 hours, talk about a good impression. Well, dang, I can't believe I had forgotten about this for such a long time. Good thing I was cleaning today, or else I wouldn't have found it. Well, it is getting pretty late, so I got to go. Byee~

May 24, 2008: Another day, another fight. Geez, my mother can't leave me alone. I don't know why she is like this. I was talking to a friend earlier today, after hanging out with him a little in the morning, and she blew up on me afterwards. Because, I shouldn't be talking to such people. I don't really want to talk about this anymore; I can't take much more of this. But, I did have some fun today. The little Mudkip I met yesterday came over again. It was supposed to be a party, but my other friends couldn't make it for a variety of reasons. I can't believe I didn't even know his name until today. It may be a little weird, but his name is Hidden Savior. I for one think that name is amazing for a Mudkip, or anyone for that matter. I didn't know a Flareon could have so much fun with such fun with a Mudkip, but hey, what can I say, he is an awesome guy. First of all, he can draw really well. I took a look at some of his drawings, and I was amazed at how detailed everything was. Also, he can do all sorts of things in athletics. Back-flips, handstands, front-flips, and that isn't even all of it. He tried to help me a little, but I fell down... a lot. I had a great deal of fun. I was amazed at how I was able to forget all about my previous fight with my mom. That in itself was an accomplishment. Uhh, my brain is telling me to shut up and get some sleep, so I guess I will listen to it for once, I ignore it too much anyway. So, I will return tomorrow. Byee~

May 25, 2008: I AM SO MAD! MY MOM WON'T LET ME HAVE ME DO ANYTHING NOW! SHE SAID I'M NOT ALOUD TO HAVE ANY FRIENDS OVER; I'M NOT ALOUD TO SEE MY FRIENDS AT ALL. UGH! I AM NOT GOING TO TAKE THIS ANYMORE! I don't know exactly what I can do, but all I know is that I'm not going to stay here and do it. I am going to stay here for one more night, just to get everything in order before I get out of this area and trek into the wide open wonders of the forest. Good night and goodbye.

May 26, 2008: Well, turns out that I'm not going to move out. Thanks to Hidden, I have decided to stay here. I still am at ends with my family. Well, I might as well talk about how Hidden helped me. I had just gotten out of my house and was on my way to the forest. I visited Hidden so he would know what I was doing. It would be hard leaving all of my friends, especially my newest and coolest friend Hidden, but it wasn't worth this crazy family life. However, upon arriving and telling him my plan, he convinced me that even though they are obsessive, crazy nut-jobs, I would be able to leave the house when I find a mate. The only problem with that it, I am too shy about that sort of thing. One time, me and a friend were walking through the forest and she attempted to kiss me. How do I react to this? Any normal male Flareon would easily just return the favor, probably going for more. Me on the other hand, I looked at her, blushed, and ran away not able to face it. I don't know why I did, I shouldn't have been. I wanted my first kiss to be perfect, with the perfect girl, and I the timing wasn't right, or something. I guess I didn't find her to be the one. I am a hopeless romantic. I don't think exactly like most macho men do. If I find something cute, adorable, or all together irresistibly wonderful, I say so. I listen to some songs that aren't really songs for guys, quite the opposite actually. I just like having fun, no matter what that makes me look like. Let people think of me how they want, I am happy about the way I am, and that is all I care about. However, I kind of got off-topic there. So, yeah, after Hidden convinced me to stay at home, he told me that if need be, I would be able to stay the night at his parent's house. My day was brightened as I approached my house, not giving a crap about my dad standing outside, waiting for me. After having to hear his hour long lecture, my mom entered the conversation and gave another hour tirade. But I didn't care, all I cared about was the fact that I had friends who were going to be there if needed. Whatever this family throws at me, I will be ready.

May 27, 2008: I can't believe what just happened today! My mom decided to allow me to have my friends over again, but on certain conditions which were bad, but tolerable. Anything was better than no friends at all. Instead of throwing a huge party, I only invited my two friends, my Jolteon friend, Rick and Hidden. Man, did we have a ton of fun today. We played some exciting, fun games, like Auraball. There was only one problem, when we finally rested after all our games, one way or another; we got into the topic of girls. We begin talking about who in the area we would like to become mates with. Rick came up with his pretty easy, Marie, a Mareep that lived pretty close. They had been friends since childhood, so I couldn't imagine him picking anyone else. When it got to Hidden, he kinda hesitated. It looked like he had said the first girl who came to mind. Rachel, an Pikachu that again, lived close by. As soon as he said Rachel, he asked me who I would choose. Yes, I had been thinking about this very question for quite some time now, but I never could find anyone of interest. So, I lied and said Rachel too. They seemed to buy it, so that seemed to work out for me. Well, I have had a long day today, I have to go out and scavenge tomorrow, so I hope that all goes well. That job alone takes me a good 8 hours, and by the time I get back, the day is gone. Wish me luck!~

May 28, 2008: Today was another magnificent day! (And I have now found out that this journal is getting very confusing without paragraph structure, so I'm going to do that from now on.) As I said yesterday, I was forced to scavenge yesterday for food. My dad would usually help me on this, but he was laid up in bed with the flu. I normally didn't mind doing this, but since my dad was sick, it was going to take an extra couple of hours and that meant me getting up earlier to do it. So, as I started walking out to the fields, Hidden greeted me and asked what I was doing with a fruit basket (event though it was pretty obvious.) When I told him I was going to go scavenge for food, he asked if he could join me. I humbly agreed and off we went. I was ready for a 6 hour scavenge, since now I had an extra helper, but instead it took only 3 hours. Largely due to the fact that Hidden knew where all the best spots were for gathering. Since my parents weren't expecting me for a while, me and Hidden were able to have some fun with the remaining 5 hours.
First, we went over to Lake Madison, a small little lake only inhabited by a couple Goldeens. Me, being a Flareon, was afraid to go in. So, Hidden, being the silly Mudkip that he is, dove right in and splashed me teasingly, provoking me to jump in without noticing the water. As soon as I got in, I the rush of water collapse against my fluffy mane. Burr, was it cold. I looked over to see the Mudkip laughing and continue to splash me. I easily forgot about how scary the experience was and attempted to catch him. Only problem was, I couldn't swim that well. I pushed and pushed with all my strength, but Hidden was swimming circles around me. After a while of chasing, he swam over and after I dunked him a few times, he taught me how to swim, at least a little better.
At some point in time, Hidden looked over the horizon and saw something that made him swim out of the water and rushed me out too, saying we HAD to climb Mt. Dimmesdale, for some reason. I swam to the shore and as I got out, I saw the water still attached to me, keeping my mane clung to my body. Hidden came over to help get me dry, and when he got to the right place, I started shaking my body, sending water everywhere, but mostly just on the little Mudkip. He now began chasing me as I ran for Mt. Dimmesdale.
So, we trekked up Mt. Dimmesdale, which in itself was a very exhausting, yet rewarding trip. Yet, when we reached the top after an hour of hiking, me and him sat up at the top and watched as the sunrise was beginning. It was a really gorgeous sight, defiantly worth the hour trip up the mountain. This must have been what Hidden was talking about earlier, why we HAD to climb Mt. Dimmesdale now. As I watched the sun rise, something caught the corner of my eye. When I went to look over, I saw Hidden's body glistening from the water still left on his body. It looked like his body was a shining diamond. Hidden looked over at me while I was staring, which only made me blush and turn my head back around to the sun. At the moment, I couldn't tell which was more stunning, the glorious sun rising, or the dazzling spectacle that was Hidden. I pondered this for a while, before Hidden spoke up and said we better start heading back for home before my parents start to suspect something.
Even though I wanted to stay up there for longer, I knew this was true. So, we walked back home and made it home just under 8 hours. Which was good, because my mother said if I had taken any longer, she was going to go out and look for me herself. Remember, this was all in the morning; it wasn't even close to dawn yet. However, the rest of my day could not compare to the wonders I had in those first couple of hours today. Hidden wasn't able to do anything today because he had to help his mother with something which I didn't ask about. I once again threw another party, to try and rid me of my inevitable boredom, but it just wasn't the same without Hidden. It was like the life of the party had disappeared. I don't know why I felt this way; I had only met him 6 days ago. Not even a full week! But hey, I wasn't complaining. The people also noticed the boredom in me and kept asking "What's wrong?" and "Com'on, join the rest of us, it will be fun." The thing was, it just wasn't the same. Well, my mom is yelling at me to go to bed already, so I have to go. Byee~

May 29, 2008: Ugh, I am soooo tired. I just got home from a walk with my parents. They wanted to take a day of vacation from everything and just spend some time as a 'real family'. My dad was finally feeling better, so my mother decided it was the perfect time to do so. The whole time, I was so bored. All I could think about was yesterday morning and the adventures me and Hidden could be having right now. I couldn't believe anyone could be this fun. However, I was stuck on this sort of nature walk with my family.
The weirdest thing was, they kept talking about the importance of finding a mate. I know how much a mate means to a person. They are the one you choose to be with for life. You have to choose wisely, or else things could end up bitter. Plus, they would be your life-partner and bearer of your kin. They kept going on and on about how I needed to get more in the game, instead of hanging out with my friends every night. Well, I am still tired from all this walking, and I want to be bright eyed and bushy tailed for tomorrow. I can't wait to hang out with Hidden again. He is just the perfect idea of a friend. Nice, kind, and you can't forget totally awesome. I hope he can teach me how to get that back flip down someday! Well, I have to go now. Byee~

May 30, 2008: Gosh Dangit! Today, instead of hanging out with Hidden like I had planned, I was stuck having to help my parents around the area all day. Meaning less tasks that they could have easily done in no time flat that took me three times as long due to my inexperience at the crafts. I got even madder when Hidden stopped over and I had to tell him that I would be busy all day today. I wanted to go play with him, I really did, but my parents had other plans for me. Hidden looked disappointed as he left, it made me both sad, and angry. I tried to finish up all the odd jobs as fast as I could in order to spend a little bit of time with him, but by the time I was done, it was too late. So, here I sit again, looking up at the stars and I can't help but think about what tomorrow will bring. Well, I guess this is goodnight. Byee~
PS: You won't believe what happened to me! Just when I was almost asleep, Hidden snuck past my parent's bed and got me up. I was so happy he had come that I without thinking jumped out of bed, making a big noise when I hit the ground. Luckily, this did not awake my parents, so we crept out of sight and just hung out for a couple hours, talking about this and that. He showed me a drawing he had made of me and him. I couldn't help but think that it was cute. Hey, guys can think something is cute and still be a man. Here, let me paste it here. Well, I have to go before my parents wake up. But me and him did have a fun time tonight. I hope tomorrow brings us some fun too. Byee for real now~

May 31, 2008: All that waiting was definitely worth it! Me and Hidden got up early in the morning and set out for the forest before sunrise again and made it up Mt. Dimmesdale just in time to see it again. Just as I remembered it, gorgeous, and joyous occasion as we brought some food to eat up there, like a picnic, except we didn't have a basket or anything, just a small little blanket to sit out on. Ok... it was a picnic, but we didn't call it that. I don't even know what we called it, but I know we didn't call it a picnic! Anyway, we ate some berries and watched as the gleaming reddish-orange sun slowly ascended from below the horizon. I looked over and saw Hidden once again, but this time, he too was looking over at me. I blushed and turned back around.
After sitting and chatting for a while, we went back down the mountain, of course making it a race. I was going to slow down to keep it close, so I started trotting down when I saw him run right past me. He was going fast! I wasn't about to let him smoke me like that, so I bolted for it. Thank goodness I trained for this with my dad all my life. I hated it, it was tiring, painful, and most importantly, boring. But, they did gear me up for just this occasion. I eventually caught up to him and we barreled down the mountain.
When we were just ¾ of the way down when suddenly, he tripped and started tumbling down. I dove to catch him, not caring about my personal health. I grabbed him and tucked it into my body as I absorbed all the pain, shielding him from everything. After what seemed like forever, I hit the ground and let him go after I knew everything was safe. Hidden looked completely shocked to see what had just happened. He looked over at me and gasped as he saw my mangled body, oozing blood from the many wounds and deep cuts all around my body. I looked up and saw him dashing towards my body before I blacked out.
I awoke to see Hidden's terrified face, which I was sad that he was scared, but I was happy to just see him. "Are you alright? I called for help, but since no one came, I made a small little cart and was able to pull you to your parent's area. You are fine now, but you were near death. So, I guess my debt was repaid in full quickly. I'm so glad you are safe though! I am going to stay with you until I am forced home because, I mean, it is my birthday tomorrow. Your parents said that you should be better by tomorrow, so I will see you there though. So, I think your parents would want to see you now. I'll be back in here after they are done. Ok?"
He left, reluctantly, but he knew my parents would have wanted to see me now. He walked across the open field and told my parents I was awake. They rushed up to me and made sure that I was alright, poking different areas of my body to make sure that I was ok. My left front leg was still a little sore with almost a broken bone, so I was told not to run for a couple days. Other than that, I was fine. My parents yelled at me for a little bit, saying what I did was stupid and immature. My dad especially because we had been training up there a lot and I should have known where to go in order to not fall down. (My mother didn't know we did this because she would have been soooo mad about it. She hated putting anyone in any danger possible.)
I just waited it out, thinking all the while about what Hidden did for me. I mean, I didn't do that much, I just didn't want my best friend to get hurt. That is normal behavior, right? Wouldn't he of done the same for me? I thought about this until my parents once again left me to be with Hidden. We just talked about it all. The past couple of days, the accident, and even about tomorrow. He kept asking about his present, but I said he would find out tomorrow. The sun eventually dropped down and the stars shone brightly. Hidden laid down next to me, and we just sat watching the dotted skyline twinkle. It had been a long day, well, not for me because I had been unconscious for the better part of the day, but it was getting pretty late. Hidden stayed by my side though, and I was glad he did. I wouldn't know what would of happened to me if it hadn't have been for his quick thinking. Unfortunately, Hidden's mom called for Hidden to get home so that he could not have bags under his eyes when his birthday party transpired. He reluctantly agreed and waved goodbye as he left. I laid down in my nicely made bed, well, it wasn't anything great. It was a stick bed frame with leaves as a mattress, but that was good enough for me. Well, I am going to fall asleep soon so I can get ready for Hidden's party tomorrow. So, without further delay, byee~

June 1, 2008: Almost halfway through the year, and what better way to celebrate by having a huge party for my new best friend, Hidden? Dang, was it a full day. I had to go get all ready for Hidden's awesome party, so I got up real early and went down to Lake Madison where I took a nice, long bath. I thought about how much fun the party was going to be and how it was going to be the best of the year. After that, I came back home and got everything ready for the party. I picked up his present (well, put it in my mouth, seeing as I couldn't carry it with my paws,) and headed over to his party.
I was one of the first to arrive and was star-struck when I saw the Hidden come up to me. I don't know how, but he got himself to look even cuter than usual (yes, I said cute, if I wasn't a guy, I would totally have fallen for him by now.) He introduced me to all of his friends and soon, more and more people arrived. Rick wasn't able to come due to a family emergency, and I didn't know anyone else there. I tried to have conversations with them, but they would look at me and ignore me. I sat in the corner while I watched everyone else having a good time. Hidden asked where I had hidden (hehe, pun), and someone pointed in my direction.
I didn't want him to see me like this, so I got up and jumped into a conversation, which I was shoved out of by some little Rattata, grrr. I sat back in the corner, agreeing to the fate of no fun today. Hidden rushed over and asked what was wrong. "I don't know any one here, I tried to get on their good side, but I guess I'm not good enough for them." I ran off away from everyone, fighting back tears until I was in the clear. I dove behind some trees and wept. I had wanted to have fun at Hidden's party, but no one was allowing me to.
I sat there for only moments before Hidden popped out of nowhere. "You shouldn't be running, your dad said you should lay off it for a few days." I didn't know what to say. "Shouldn't you be over at your party? I'm fine, go have fun." I forced a laugh out, trying to cover up my true sadness. "It isn't fun without you there. They are all being idiots anyway, I would much rather hang over here with you!" He smiled as he sat opposite from me and offered some of his homemade poppins. Which, by the way, I said he was good at everything, and boy, did he make the best poppins around. Only he could make something this delicious. I protested, but was very glad that he had ditched his own party, just for me.
Again, we sat there and talked like we normally did. I laughed as I couldn't help but feel awkward, keeping Hidden from his other friends. I was extremely grateful for it though. I couldn't even begin to tell you what we were talking about, because I can't even remember now. I think it had something to do with music. I really don't care that much for music, but just talking with Hidden made the whole conversation enjoyable, only he could have done that. We stayed and talked the whole night, even after everyone had cleared out of his party. Hidden, a true friend indeed. I headed home after a while because I knew we both had to get SOME sleep. We promised to meet tomorrow, and with that, I was off. I laid down and watched the stars again, thinking that somewhere, he was probably doing the same. Again, it is getting late and I have to go. Byee~

PS: Huh, for some reason, and I don't know what that reason is, I had a dream about Hidden tonight. I awoke slightly after it, so here it is. We were walking down path coming back home, and suddenly, we were up at the top of Mt. Dimmesdale. I looked around and saw that Hidden was walking off the edge. I yelled "NO!" but he told me to come with him. I walked over with him, and he grabbed ahold of me and jumped off the edge, all the while whispering "Trust me." I clinched my teeth for the crack against the ground and the death that was awaiting m and Hidden, but somehow, I felt the cool tingle of water collecting onto me. I opened my eyes to reveal Lake Madison and Hidden swimming right in front of me. I began to chase after him, to try and catch him and make him stop splashing me when he kept going faster and faster. He swam until he was out of sight, and I was left out in the middle of the lake, all alone. I woke up after this, but I don't exactly know what to make of it all, well, I guess I'm going to get more sleep tonight, it had been a stressful day and I just wanted some shut eye.

June 2, 2008: ... Today was a very, emotional day... It started out like any other day, me waking up and after conversing with my parents AGAIN about the need for a mate, I headed over to Hidden's area. But when I got there, I found him being bullied around by a group of mixed, but equally tough pokemon. Umbreons, Primeapes, Ratticates, etc. I once again went against my father and ran in front of him, chewing out the group. How dare they make say these kinds of things to such a nice little Mudkip. He hadn't done anything to anybody.
Well, I guess I got what I wanted; they stopped making fun of Hidden. Only problem was, they turned their attention to me. They were now making fun of me, just because I was defending a friend. Calling me gay and saying that I was in love with him. I fought back on this, defending my position and telling those punks if they wanted someone to pick on, I was right here, ready to knock them down a peg or two. They chickened out saying that they 'didn't want to waste any energy on me.' Yeah, right, wimps.
I turned to see Hidden wasn't there anymore. I ran to find him, but fell as my leg gave out on me. Hidden immediately jumped out from behind a bush and came up to me. He examined the leg as best he could, saying that it was going to be ok. He told me that he had to help his family out a bit and that we could hang out tomorrow. I agreed, not too happily of course, but never the less agreed and started walking home.
Somehow, I got to thinking about what those guys had said to me. I wasn't gay; I wasn't in love with Hidden. He was just a good friend, no, an amazing friend. He helped me out when I needed him and I did the same. Then, I thought about the night I got injured, me throwing myself at him and making sure he wasn't going to be hurt. That was what any friend would do, right? That didn't mean I liked him. I thought back to the party last night. He had come over and ditched his own party, just for me. That didn't mean he liked me either, another good friend move. I kept on thinking, the sunrise where we both were caught looking at each other, the drawing he had made for me, everything.
But then, I stopped when I thought about the best day of my life... May 28th... I had so much fun that day, and I kept going through the day picture for picture, the lake trip. He made me dissolve my fear of jumping into the water, and when I was already in there, scared, he helped me relieve my nervousness. I kept thinking all the way up to the top of the mountain, the sunrise and the gorgeous view we had. But what I remembered most, was the vision of Hidden, with all the water glistening off his body. It was the most beautiful site I had ever seen. I couldn't deny this fact any longer, I liked Hidden.
The real question was, did he like me back? Was his party not evidence? Or just a good friend's help? Also, back when me, him, and Rick were talking about girls, why did he hesitate on his answer. I thought about it, but he wasn't really thinking about it, he just sat there for a second before blurting out Rachael. I got home and couldn't get this out of my head, the whole day came and went, but my thoughts never dwindled, never faltered. They stood there, cemented into my mind up till now. I am going to try and get some sleep tomorrow; I hope Hidden lives up to his word about tomorrow. There was so much more that I thought about, but I didn't want this entry to be too long. Hehe, well, I guess I will be leaving you. Byee~

PS: I had the dream again, exact same thing, no matter what I did. What should I make of this? Is it a sign of something? I just realized my true feelings for Hidden, but did my unconscious mind know more than my conscious mind? Well, that's a problem I'm going to have to deal with another day. Byee~, again.

June 3, 2008: An awkward, yet fun day. I went over to Hidden's house mid-day, not knowing when the right time to go was. Should I go early, later, or when? I debated this in my head until I finally walked over to his area. I kept thinking to myself, ok, just keep it cool. This doesn't change anything. We are still best friends and were just going to have another day of fun.
Hidden was already waiting for me, asking what took me so long. I ignored this, mostly because I was mad at myself for not coming sooner. We left on our normal trip, but since the sun was already towering over us, we skipped the mountain and just headed over to the lake again. I waited for Hidden to jump in, then I followed right after him, landing ever so close enough to get him drenched in water, but not hitting him. We just had fun in the lake for most of the day. Granted, when we got out, we looked like shriveled prunes, but it was all worth it. I once again shook myself dry and we walked around the lake as we talked.
Unlike most our normal conversations, it seemed extremely awkward because I couldn't think of anything to talk about anymore. Just a bunch of random topics which we would usually trail off-topic every 5 minutes. Hidden asked what was wrong with me, and I caught what I was doing. So, from then on, we went back to our normal way of chatting. We talked until the sun had disappeared again and knew that it was time to head on home. The entire walk home was quiet, maybe 5 minute conversations about random stuff either me or Hidden started to try and add conversation into the mix of the long walk. I knew that my liking him would change some things, but not like this! Anyway, we made it home safely and I now rest before you, tired, and relieved I got through today without revealing anything. So, goodnight and goodbyee~

June 4, 2008: How can I describe today? I don't even know, why don't I tell you, then you can tell me yourself? So, I wake up feeling the warm sun beating down on me. I didn't wake up on my own will though. Someone's voice woke me up. I craned my head up so I could see who it was, and was surprised to see both my mom and dad standing there. They never wake me up, and also, they had the biggest smiles I have seen out of them in a while. "Hey Tsukune, we have a surprise for you." They were standing very close together and after this, they took two steps apart to reveal a Flareon standing there. Not just any Flareon, but it was Amber, the hottest (pun, and ha, I didn't even notice Amber is linked to fire, double pun, lol) girl at our old school.
She was a shy girl, and it didn't help that she constantly had guys following her all the time. Even I have to admit, I did like her back then, but that was years ago, back when I was still in training school. What was she doing here? "Tsukune, this is..." But she was cut off by me. "Amber? Is that you?" I was still stunned to see my old crush standing right in front of me. It may have just been my mind playing tricks on me. I pinched myself to make sure I wasn't dreaming, which to my dismay, I didn't wake up. "Yes Tsukune, long time no see. I saw you the other day with your little Mudkip friend and remembered training school. If you didn't notice, I had a crush on you at the time." She blushed as she giggled slightly. A giggle that brought back a lot of memories. "Wait a second, you liked me? I thought you didn't even know me! I liked you!" I blurted out, thinking back to all those times in training school.
"Well, isn't this just great? Tsukune, Amber wanted to hang out with you today, ok?" My dad asked this nicely, but on 'ok?', he emphasized his position, making it clear that I was to hang out with her today. I thought back at Hidden and what plans we had for today, which was nothing, but we always had a plan to hang out with each other. Well, what's one day of making up for lost time? I got out of bed and started off with Amber to Lake Madison, where I had fun with Hidden, why not spread the wealth?
On the way over, we talked about what the other had been doing since we had last seen each other. Amber hadn't done much, but she said some things that got to me. Ever since training school, she has had guys chase after her left and right. She always liked the more secluded, peaceful guys, but she never seemed to find anyone like that, except for me. Over the years, she had tried to find someone just like me: nice, calm, but fun at the right times, and she even added cute. I couldn't help but blush, I mean, my childhood dream was coming true, how often does that happen to people? So, when her family moved away, she stayed behind, finally realizing that she didn't want someone LIKE me, but she wanted the real thing. (I mean, com'on, there is only one Tsukune. I'm like a Van Gogh, perfect in every way, original, and a 1 of a kind. Lol, just kidding, I'm not egotistical like that, if anything, I'm the opposite. But, you can set yourself loose when you write, that's one of the many things I like about writing.)
I continued to blush throughout, not knowing what to think. I didn't say much, just that I was doing fine now and sooner or later, I was going to move out when I find the ideal mate. This seemed to spark her interests, I don't know why though. Yes, we had liked each other years ago, but that didn't mean she wanted to be my mate after all these years, did it? Or am I just that oblivious to the things happening around me.
We arrived at the lake, but something was apparently wrong. I ran up and jumped in, unknowingly splashing some near her. She cringed as she stepped back further. "Tsukune! That's water!" She yelled out, still frightened. "Oh com'on Amber, a little water never hurt anyone. Besides, I'm right here, trust me, I won't let anything happen to you." I extended a paw, hoping for her to grab hold of, but she refused. "No Tsukune, I'm too scared, let's go." She turned and started walking to a safe distance while I walked out of the water.
Why didn't she trust me? If she really wanted me, she should have trusted me enough to protect her, no matter if it was a lake full of water, or inevitable death before us. I said I was going to protect her, she should have trusted me. I mean, I trusted Hidden when I jumped in. The lake scene jumped into my head again and no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't get it out of there. Even after I dried off and began walking with her, I still thought about it. Yes, she was cute and yes, I used to like her, but that was years ago. My childhood dream may have been unfolding right before my very eyes, but now I know why childhood dreams never come true. When we are young, we only what we want in that instant, never thinking about the long term effects from it. I had wanted Amber back then, but that was before I met Hidden, the funniest, most enjoyable Mudkip around.
Apparently, she knew something was wrong, and she asked about it. "Nothing, I was just deep in thought." She tried getting more out of me, pressuring me to say something like "I have been wanting you too." But I hadn't been, I had moved on. I wanted someone who liked everything I enjoyed, would trust me and protect me, as I would do the same for them. I know my parents must have been so excited when Amber stopped over, probably thinking "Finally, he has found the perfect mate. And he didn't even have to leave the comfort of his own home. Dang, he is lucky. Plus, I don't think he could have found anyone better." Something along those lines.
Either way, we arrived back at my house and we hung out for some more, just talking about old times. Like the time little Janet sneezed milk all over Amber and when she ran to go clean up, I was there with a helping hand. You see, I was always the guy who sat with his friends, but always pinned to be with the girl of his dreams, thinking about the ideal date, kiss, marriage, etc, etc. I know, foolish, but I was a kid.
After a while, it was growing dark and I was feeling tired. She was about to leave when my parents came up and asked where she was going. She said that she didn't exactly know, her parents were gone and for the past week, she had been searching for me. Oh great, I knew what was coming. My parents said she had to stay here, so I had to share my small little bed with her. God was that uncomfortable, and I had to wait for her to fall asleep in order to write in here. Plus, I don't want her waking up and seeing me doing this, so I am going to stop for now. Byee~

June 5, 2008: ... I can't stop the tears now... I guess I should fill you in on today, but what's the point? Well, it may be best just to vent this out. Well, I woke up to see Amber right there, which I was saddened about, I didn't want this. I only wanted Hidden. So, I skipped out on breakfast and, followed by Amber, went over to Hidden's house to see if he wanted to do something. Maybe I could ditch Amber somewhere and tell him for real about this... this feeling. I walked up to his area and was dismayed to see him with someone. Upon closer inspection, it was Rachael, the Pikachu from up the river.
My heart sank. He had got Rachael to go along with him, who knew how long it would be before they became mates. Wait, what if they already had! I started to head home when Hidden must have seen me and ran over. Amber grabbed my arm and almost threw me back to face him. After a brief awkward talk, he invited me and Amber to meet Rachael and have some breakfast with them. I didn't really want to, but I wasn't going to show Hidden my true feelings like this, so we came over and sat down with Hidden and Rachael, Hidden wrapped his arm around her and I sank into the ground.
If only he knew how much that simple action dug into me. Just the motion of him putting his arm around someone else tore into me, ripping apart the fiber of my very being. They sat and talked while I pretended to be interested in the conversation, which I didn't hide to well. But now, I didn't have Hidden to help me, sure, I had Amber, but that didn't mean anything to me. I left after I couldn't take anymore, an hour maybe, I didn't storm out or anything, I simply said goodbye and left with Amber clinging to my body.
On the way home, she pushed to find out what was wrong with me, but it was like beating a dead horse, you weren't going to get anywhere. She gave up after a while and just walked around with me, talking about God knows what, I can't remember. I wasn't in the conversation anyway; I was consumed with the thought of Hidden and Rachael. I was foolish to think that he had liked me anyway. He was just being a good friend, and nothing more... I don't want to talk about it anymore! Short story is we walked home and went to sleep after walking forever. All I thought about was Hidden, and that's all I'm going to think about all night. There, venting over!

PS: When I did get a blink of sleep, I dreamed about me and Hidden again. Not like my dream from the other day. It started out the same, but instead of him walking towards the edge, he sat there, like the first time I noticed him before in the sunlight. I was just about to tell him how I felt when I suddenly awoke in a blind panic. My breathing was going at a mile a minute as I tried to get my head back to normal. Huh, what am I going to do?

June 6 2008: Words cannot describe the mixed range of emotions I felt today. But I will give it my best shot, seeing as I will always look back upon this day, forever. Starting from the beginning, I awoke early. Actually, I never slept, so you can't say that I awoke, I gave of trying to go to sleep and got out of bed, leaving Amber to sleep alone for the remainder of the night. The time was just about the same time I woke up at when I gathered all that food last week. I didn't know what I was going to, but I set out in a known direction that over the past few days had become extremely familiar to me.
I traveled the small dirt trail over to the only place I could ever feel safe in... or so I thought. I kept walking until I had reached my destination, Hidden's area. You couldn't call it a house, because there was nothing distinguishing it from everywhere else. No solid walls circled it, no building of any kind, just a territory that was recognizable by the Savior family scent. I stepped across the invisible boundary and encroached upon them, hoping to see Hidden still awake. I crept up to where I knew his bed was, again, bed being loosely translated here, but stopped dead in my tracks by the time the starlight shined upon it. Hidden lay comfortable on his bed, but it was who was with him that made me break down. Rachael, who had a home of her own, was laying down with Hidden, not only were they sleeping in the same bed, they were sleeping in close proximity of each other. Rachael's arms were hung around Hidden's small, adorable head, as if to claim what was rightfully hers.
I couldn't stand to look at it anymore and burst off into the wilderness, not following any trail, but going as far away from him as possible. I didn't care where I was going, as long as I could be away from here. Why did Rick have to bring him to my party? Sure, it was fun at first, but all that fun could never replace the never- ending pain that was left in my soul, where a brewing fire that was eternally bound to my stomach was dying. You see, Flareons, along with Growlithes and Arcanines keep a fire always brewing in the bottom of their stomach. This was to only extinguish when our time had come, and mine was slowly dwindling.
I ran and ran until I couldn't run anymore, and wouldn't you know it, I ended up at the base of Mt. Dimmesdale. Was God trying to screw with me? Did some crazy puppet master find some sick, twisted enjoyment out of my misery? I didn't even want to know, what was the point anymore? I didn't care what my physical pains were, sure, I was tired and my bones quaked as I slowly ascended the tall, towering mountain, but this pain in my body could never match the emotional trauma that was going on in me right now.
I climbed and climbed, trying to get closer to the one they called 'God'. I needed to know why this torture was happening to me, why I had to suffer while Hidden has his dreams unfold in front of him. If he hadn't beforehand, I now knew that he had lain with Rachael as of last night, and now he had found his mate. Amber was there for me, but there was only one person that could ever feel the same to me, and that was already taken from me. I continued in my quest to scale the mountain, partly not even caring if I were to fall at that moment, it wouldn't matter to me anyway. I just kept on going, step by step until I finally pushed myself up and over the final steep. It took every ounce of strength left in me, but I had finally reached my goal, the top of Mt. Dimmesdale.
I looked over to the spot where me and Hidden first shared that sunrise, where I, without realizing it, had begun to fall in love with Hidden. That sparkle in him was just so irrevocable, I couldn't help but think it. I walked over to the spot and sat down, in the same place I had always been, on the right just enough away from the cliff where I felt safe and there was just enough grass left to keep my paws from getting scratched. I looked out and saw the sun begin to rise just like it always had, and always will. No matter what happens here on Earth, the sun will always be there every morning, and set on the other horizon every night. It was something you just couldn't fight, kinda like the cruelty of fate.
I sat there, alone, and wept as I watched the magnanimous sun rise again and I looked over to reveal the truth, no Mudkip to be found. I buried my head into my hands and cried openly, snot flowing from my nostrils as I didn't care what or who watched me. I cried out to the sun "Why do you curse me so? Making me believe that dreams came true, that what we want in this world will never be given to us. Why do you continue to make a mockery of me, cursing me to this terrible fate?" I had more to say, but stopped seeing as tears and snot were taking away from the sound of my voice. I looked back over to where the once cute Mudkip had been, and jumped clear off the ground when I saw Hidden begin to sit down. "Hey there, what's the matter?"
Hidden looked up at me and his face shrunk when he saw the shriveled up, dried snot and tears that were still left plastered on my face. His voice raised in sincerity as he asked, "What happened to you?" He walked over to where I was now sitting and as I searched for the right words, nothing seemed to come into my head. The beating sun began to shine brighter as out of the corner of my eye, it was almost cresting the horizon and ready to begin another day here in the meadow. The only words I could muster at the time, after wiping away the tears and snot from my face were "Isn't it beautiful?" I looked out at it, not really expecting an answer when I heard the soft voice of Hidden whisper "Yes, he is." I looked up, not knowing how to take this last statement.
He blushed as he went back to the normal spot we had sat in every other sunrise. I walked back, wanting to hear the rest of what he had to say, but he just looked out at the sun again, like I had done earlier. I tried to comprehend if he was talking about me, or was this just my mind playing tricks on me. I closed my eyes and shook my head, trying to clear myself of the fog that was closing in on me. "Hey, silly Tsukune, it isn't a dream, you heard me correctly." He blushed again as he turned back to look at me. I don't exactly know how, but I could feel my eyes twinkling as my dreams became true in front of me. "Hidden, are you trying to tell me that you like me?"
I sat there, anxious about his response. "Tsukune, how could I not? You are the most important person in my life right now. These past few days have been the best days of my life, and it was all thanks to you. But why were you crying?" I look over at him and begin to explain the reasoning.
I remember it word for word. Things like this, you can't get out of your mind, I had this whole scene playing in my head over and over all day today, and I have it playing out right now. Words like this are etched into your skull, and no matter how hard you blink, they are never erased from your mind. These words can stick in your head for a number of reasons.
One can be the utter pain these words can inflict on you. They can be from a friend, a lover, or some respected being close to you, either way, it has to be someone close to you. Someone that can say something, and you listen to them. The second reason being things you say to someone else. This can sometimes be good things, but most of the time, it is things you regret. You try to take a bath, but you can't wash off the feeling of dirt that was left on you. You can scrub all you want, but you can't scrub off your moral values, your conscious. Third, and most of all important, is the words that are said to and by you with someone that sticks in your head because your answers are answered. The best feeling in the world comes from this, and no one word can describe it, nor am I going to try and sum it up. When you find that someone needs you, and you need them too, the world around you cease to exist and you are standing in an open field, or for me and Hidden, on top of the world.
"Hidden, I can't shake this feeling. This feeling of longing to be around you. Do you remember that day? The day that those bullies were making fun of you? I stepped in and they began calling me gay for you, and you know what, they were right. I denied it at first, because I was blind to what was presented in front of me." I stopped as I noticed Hidden wanted to comment. "Tsukune, I do remember that day, but I don't remember it as cheerily as you do. I remember it as a day of sorrow and regret. I was beginning to fall for you, and what you said then stuck into me. As soon as they left, I ran for it, trying to run from the truth that I couldn't handle. When you came looking for me and fell, I couldn't help but feel compelled to help you. That night, I sat up all night, thinking about it." He slumped into the ground as he reminisced about it.
"Hidden, I did the same. Except, instead of staying up all night about that, I stayed up because I had realized that I did like you and that I did want to be with you." I sat there, knowing that he had been staying up all night too. "Hidden, I was up here crying because I walked into your area to see you and Rachael, sharing the same bed, and by the look of it, you had mated with her. I couldn't take the realization of it all and I ran up here." Hidden began to laugh at this though. "Why are you laughing? What can you possibly find funny in this?" I asked, trying to understand his reasoning for laughing.
"Tsukune, I never slept with Rachael, yes, she wanted to, but I declined. The only reason I even had her over was because I saw you in bed with Amber. You didn't like me, or so I thought, so I gave into Rachael's question to have her stay with me for a while. That is why I got in bed with her, nothing happened, but I did it because I thought you had moved on with Amber. That is why I was laughing, the sure stupidity of all this."
"Oh, Hidden, I am soooo sorry if I did that. I didn't do anything with Amber either, she just showed up at my door one day and my parents insisted on her staying with us. Instead of making her a bed, they said she should share my bed. So, now that we got that out of the way... what shall we do now?" Before I can think about what was going on in front of me, Hidden leaned over and pecked me. He turned back around as both of us blush and sink back into he ground. "So, how was that?" I look over at him, and simply state "I don't know, it wasn't long enough for me to judge."
So I now leaned over and kissed him. However, instead of just a simple peck, I kissed him, I mean, really kissed him. I hadn't even planned on doing any of this, just in the heat of the moment, I couldn't help myself. He took away all that shyness I had ever been feeling, like someone else took over my body and forced me to do what I wanted, but was too scared to do so. I broke the kiss to catch my breath and ask, "Now, how was it?" He looked up at me and looked into my eyes before tackling me to the ground, not answering my question, but hey, I couldn't have asked for a better answer.
We tumbled a little, but we continued kissing throughout. I couldn't believe that in the course of 5 minutes, my living hell had turned into my living paradise. I barely even noticed when his tongue knocked through my lip barriers and opened up a whole new array of possibilities. I began thinking to myself, had I found a mate? Did he want it to go that far, or did he want to just have this one moment together. I didn't dare ask him this though; my shyness took care of that. Plus, why would I possibly want to end this kiss? Suddenly, I felt something rub up against me and after a while, I realized what it must be.
I blushed again and didn't know what to think of it. I broke the kiss, I didn't want to, but I had to ask him this. He looked up at me, somewhat disappointed that I broke the bond between us. "Tsukune, what's wrong?" He asked when he saw me going off somewhere into space, deep in thought. This snapped me back though. "Well, I don't know... I think you may want to, but I don't want to risk anything. Ah screw it, I might as well come out and say it, will you... be my mate?" I asked, twisting my back left foot left and right as I waited for an answer. He didn't even think about it, all he did was blurt out "YES!" as he jumped up, fist raised towards the sky. I could only laugh as I watched him parade around, as if he were king.
"Well Hidden, now that we got that out of the way, uhh, how do you want to do this?" I asked yet another question. "Well, whatever you want, here, I'll be submissive so that you can have your fun." He said with a smile. "Hidden, I'll be submissive so that you can have your fun. All I want is for you to be happy." I rebuttled smiling just like Hidden had been. "No no, I insist." It kept going like this, back and forth between us. It started getting heated as neither one of us seemed like they were going to budge. (Ha, funny thought, you know how young couples fight just so they can have make-up sex? Well, these two are fighting about how they were going to have sex. Is there make-up sex for that? Let's watch *sits with popcorn in hand*.)
I finally called a ceasefire, proclaiming that both of us will have a turn being dominant and submissive, so we could both see and feel which one was better for later on. Hidden humbly agreed to the terms, but then we were left with another important question, who was to go first? Instead of bickering again, we were going to settle this like gentlemen... with a game of rock, paper, scissors. Best 2 out of 3 won. First draw, Hidden won with Rock beating my Scissors. Second draw, I beat Hidden with Paper covering his Rock.
(*Me as a sportscaster* "It looks like things are coming down to the wire for these two lovebirds. With the score tied, 1 to 1, who knows what can happen, John, your analysis?" *switches another voice* "Well Pat, it could be anyone's guess. Hidden has the fierce determination in his eyes that just scream out winner, but don't count Tsukune out, I think he has a few tricks still left up his sleeve. I'm going to place my money on Tsukune, he is relaxed, even during this clutch draw." *back to Pat's voice* "Thank you John, looks like the final draw is about to go down, let's switch it back over to the main camera.")
Final draw, who would win? We beat our hands into our fists once, twice, and... SHOOT! Hidden reveals Paper, and when the dust clears from his explosive blast, the only thing showing is my two fingers in the shape of Scissors. (Wow, I really just did that. I took something that could have been a sentence and turned it into that... just, wow.)
So, I watched as Hidden dipped his head down and began to lick at my sheath. Just three little licks, and it was almost erect. Hidden took one last, looooong lick extending from the bottom of my ball sack to the tip of my pre covered member. I shuddered as he enclosed my now erect member into his mouth and before I knew it, he began slowly moving his head back and forth. Back and forth he went, and I couldn't help but grab hold of something, it was just too much for me not to do so. I grabbed hold of my legs and gripped them tight as Hidden's head began to pick up speed. Then, out of nowhere, he began to circle his tongue around my member as he bobbed his head. He doubled my pleasure tenfold with that and I could feel it rising up through my pulsing member. His movements seemed to match perfectly with something, because before I knew it, my fluids were shooting out. I trembled as the shots of my juice were becoming less and less frequent, until it eventually stopped. Hidden gulped it all down, licking his lips clear of the sticky mess. My thighs were still layered with some cum, but he didn't care.
He turned around, as if inviting me into him. I paused before lifting my head up to him and began licking the little slit. He groaned with the first lick, and I continued to do so until I saw him look back, and I knew that I was torturing him. I didn't want me to be the cause of any torture to him, so I got off the ground now and slowly walked over him, placing my arms and body in a comfortably position before I let my member poke at his back door. He eagerly nodded, and I, very gently, pushed my throbbing cock inside him.
He let out a loud groan with this, and I paused before resuming my pushing, making sure he was all right. I rocked myself back and forth, barely moving, but it seemed to be working for him. I gradually sped up my movements, doing exactly what was pre-programmed into me from my parents. I could feel his inside walls and I loved being able to be with him, like this right now. We were sharing what all lovers do, and I couldn't have been more happier. He looked the part too as I was now going at a moderate pace, hoping I wasn't hurting him at all. Out of nowhere, Hidden screams "DEEPER!" Hey, he wanted deeper, I was extremely happy to oblige. I pushed myself even further into him, hoping that I wasn't hurting him or anything. Then again, he was enjoying himself quite nicely. He was panting in rhythm of my thrusts. I kept on going, deeper, harder, faster with every thrust. He began gasping after a couple of my thrusts were barreling into him, and I was so lost in ecstasy to see this at the time. I was on the brink of letting loose and I pumped harder and harder as I shot my string inside of him, lining his inside walls with my own fluids. I slowed down and hopped off after I was done. Both me and him sat there panting for a little bit, cum dripping from both my penis and his hind corners.
"So... I guess... it's your... turn?" I mutter, in-between long breaths. "If you don't... want to, you don't... have to." He whispered in-between fits of breaths for him as well. "No Hidden, we had an agreement, and I intend to live up to my end of it."
With that, I bow my head down, and lick up all the excess cum still left over from my 'adventure.' I thought that it would taste terrible, but instead, it had a sort a tingle in it. Just the right combination of sweet and spicy. I wouldn't know how to describe it other than that. All I know is that I wasn't about to let any of it go to waste. I greedily licked it all up, before cleaning up his ass that was still dripping some. I licked and licked, before I cleverly thought of something. I stuck my tongue through his lips, and wiped clean all the delicious juices. But I let him have some fun as I had my tongue go in and out, in one full motion over and over again. "Hey, I've had my fun, now it's your turn." Hidden said as he panted from the pleasure he was receiving.
I took my tongue out of there and followed the trail up to his sheath, licking it just like Hidden had done to me earlier. I watched as the little Mudkip's package seemed to get bigger and bigger. I wasn't expecting a Mudkip to be packing such heat! Either way, by the time it was fully up, I ducked my head around it and began to crane my neck back and forth, again just like Hidden had done. Hidden cried out in pure joy as he couldn't help himself and he grabbed my fur on the back of my neck. He controlled how fast I went by how hard he was squeezing. Before too long, I wrapped my tongue along his member and Hidden couldn't take much more. He was moving his hips back and forth; making me loose control and he grabbed my head now and pushed it back and forth, thrusting into it as he let out his sticky liquid. It came in short bursts, but darn were those short bursts loaded with ounces of thick liquid. I gulped it all down with one big gulp.
Following routine, I turned around and allowed Hidden to mount me. Except, I had to crouch down a little to meet his height demand, but when he grabbed hold, there was no turning back. He said that this might hurt a little, but over the course of it, it will begin to get better. I grinded my teeth as I prepared for what was about to happen. But, instead of him mounting me this way, and flipped me over and had me lay on my back while he climbed aboard. My legs were hanging on his shoulder as he slid his throbbing cock into me. I screamed out as I felt him taking my virginity (well, I was still a virgin in the back, the front as you all know, not so much anymore.) Instead of just moving inside me, he lowered his body so that he could be as close to my face as possible, he wanted to look into my eyes as he did this.
He slowly pushed back and forth, replacing the pain and inserting pleasure in its place. I could feel his massive cock more up and down in me, feeling every pulse it sent out. He kept moving faster and faster as I tried to push him deeper into me. I didn't want to scream it out, because I didn't want to ask for him to do any more. He was already doing me an extremely big favor. I thought up another brilliant idea! As he pushed forward, I pushed myself the opposite way, making him go deeper into me. He seemed to like it as I saw his expression change on his face. So, I rocked the opposite way that he did, and before I knew it, he was climaxing right inside me. The sticky liquid squirted inside me and I felt the warmth that it brought with it. He collapsed on me after he was done, still inside me. I didn't want to move him, he was tired as heck.
I looked down and kissed the top of his head, which to this he looked up and crawled up my chest, laying down next to me at head level. I turned over to hold him close to me, not ever wanting to let go. We both fell asleep at the same time, still holding onto each other. Through this experience, I have found that the terms fate and destiny are two different things entirely. Fate is the controlling force behind what was happening now, what has already happened, and sometimes even what will happen in the immediate future. While destiny, destiny was what was going to happen in the end, what was meant to be. With me and Hidden, fate had tried and failed at bringing us apart. Between Amber stopping by and Hidden seeing that, and vice versa when I saw Hidden and Rachael, fate seemed to be heavily against us. However, even with fate stacked against us, we still had destiny on our side. Nothing could shake destiny, if something is meant to be, it will come true. Me and Hidden for instance, this was destiny. We didn't care about our parents, or anyone else for that matter. We had each other, and that was all we needed.